Relationships are scary and...amazing. I'm learning so much right now about myself and my partner. I feel fortunate to have him in my life, and sometimes, I forget those happy feelings and become an uglier version of myself. The hardest part, perhaps, of getting over our fears/insecurities, is forgiving ourselves for having them. For accepting them and moving on. My rage monster, is jealousy. Where this stems from, I'm still figuring out. Mostly, I believe, it's abandonment, the fear of being left alone. Which, I feel, is so silly, because we all die, yes? And alone never has to mean alone in the sense of this vast universe. If we are energy beings, we are apart of everything, all the time. A mass of atoms bouncing around, 'negative' and 'positive' molecules. We exist as a whole unit. If only more countries taught this concept to young minds, perhaps many issues that exist today, just wouldn't. Would there be the same level of greed and jealousy, of hatred for other beings? I'd like to think not. If we're told that all beings are connected to each other, to our home planet, to the whole universe, wouldn't that drastically change the global perspective? Maybe.
It's a world I dream about and sometimes I even fear. Because it means letting go of so many preconceptions about life and relationships. It means being open to change. One of the hardest things, and most rewarding.
Don't be afraid of change. Don't be afraid of yourself. Learn, and grow.
With love,
HB
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